I'M TIRED

WHY EVERYONE IS SO EMO?
WHY EVERYDAY IS A SAD DAY?
WHY CAN'T I HAVE A HAPPY DAY?

LM ♥♥

today is LM AGM....08/09 committee is giving their place to the next badge09/10....
after school we went to dk..where LM members gather together everytime...all the form 4 members are so nervous...wish all of you good luck....
after everyone of them give their speech,we had a slide show...i was crying when the slide show is on...i really miss LM....the time,the fun and everything we been trough together....i miss you guys....i had alot of funs with all of you...
when break time i'm little emo...sorry =[
after that,try to play games in hou yan phones and i feel better...sigh...
after that,is result time....everyone is so nervous....some of them we didn't expect n some of them i never seem there before they all also get the post....anyway,congratulation to all of you...hope you guys will copperate in everything....
and to those who didn't get the post,please don't sad..you guys already did the best.....just think positively....smile my friends=]
after that went to domino to have our late lunch with tong n kell kell...i dam hungry de lu....after that kell went back n more awhile tong went back too...so i went back to school and find my darling da....and kar yew they all are there...they all look so sad....sigh....
especially kai xiang,he look so emo.....hope you don't so sad d...smile=]
and jian fei the one who also very sad,he lend my phone and listen to song...as i told him my phone only had sad songs....sigh...
and and and the one i dono is he becuz of too sad so he become sot sot liao....kar yew...dam funny la him.....i think he also using all this way to make himself not to think those unhappy things ba...he took my bracelet and he don't want to give me back and he read my msg again..he really very 8 ar...haha...anyway hope you giys don't be so emo liao la...stay happy..smile=]
about 6 mum came d....i'm dam tired n i had headache again...sigh.......

before the agm...
good luck=]




the canidates
kok ming playing with the psp
the emo me=[
playing games to forget bout sad things
hou yan=]
tong tong with my hand


piggieee and dongiiieee
peace-V
laiyuxun-PENOLONG WAKIL KELAS 08/09
he is acting serious..he annoucing the result..
and he is leaving so soon...all of us gonna miss you,lai=]


the preseident and the naib reseident

the new committee of 09/10


the group photo of new committee -09/10
this board is desgin by ka yean.
n now she is KETUA PUBLISITI


they are emo...
as u can see the most really emo in this pic is kai yang...

brandon,kar yew n(sorry i forget ur name)pai seh...
they are blocking amanda n kai yang

fail=[

today i was studying my undang for the whole day in school,cuz i having exam after skul..
thx for my darling jo yee teached me..thx alot=]
after school,went to have lunch with jo yee ,da n kellye.....after lunch,went back to ttc and waited for amanda mum to fetch us go the the place...
reache there bout 3 n we start to take exam..
sigh....i forget some of it already.....i'm very sad....in the end,i fail it...i need to retake it...waste money...sorry daddy...i get 36/50...
i feel so tired....and my dear kell n dear da pls don't sad d..i dowan to see u guys so sad....as what kellye say that in ttc...i'm very xin fu nothing to sad or wat.....but u guys dono...my looks look happy n my relationship is solve..... but i still very unhappy n feel complicated in other things....i'm stress in many things....
anything you guys unhappy just msg me yea...

i'm going to stress out=[
spm n trial is coming very very soon...
i'm getting weaker n weaker=[
i'm waiting for your call
i miss you lots

baby dear,i missing you so much......
the feeling to me is just same when the first day you left....
dear,just now u called me during tuition..sorry i can't talk to u...
i feel that you got something wanna say but i can't talk in that momment..sorry=[
i'm waiting ur call after tuition till now..so i think now you already sleep ba...sigh...
nitez my baby dear.....
wait for you call tmr=]
sweet dream..muaxzz

my mind is full of you,dear
i'm crying whenever i'm thinking of you.
sorry that i fail agian=[

missing someone very badly

today morning i cry in the car,suddenly i miss him so much...
the feeling is just same when the first day he leave me and went to melaka....
dear,i very very very miss you....morning my dear,do u sleep well?
force myself to sleep and not to cry anymore...i feel so cold and not really feeling well=[
today is report card day,every parents came...
as usual when i'm in secondary school,my father will come....i don't like my mum come....
when teacher n my dad were talking,they are really funny...teacher thx him n he thx teacher back....funny.....
after taking report card having lunch with my father n mother n my grandmother that i didn't see her for a long time...my mother side de la....so what i noe is in the car will be very noisy so i just listen to music with my headphone...while eating,i'm thinking....maybe i just need to learn from my dad....me n my dad don't really like my mother side de family,some reason..maybe i shouldn't ignore them or wat ba...just treat them how i treat my father side?maybe i need to learn aboout this...hate a ppl but u still must respet them..i think this is right?so i will learn it..=]
i do really miss my grandmother(father side)..about how many month i never saw her d...T_T
how is she?i really miss her.....when can i go and see her?sigh=[
night having tuition i want to take a nap soon......i lack of sleeping d...sigh.....
got to go now....byez...

i miss you my dear
i'm waitng for you=]
and my dear kell,
smile yea,don't worry=]

27-7-2009-monday

today after aseembly went to wakil store and waited amanda....after that amanda ask us wanna duty anot...then i say i want..cuz really no more duty after that d...miss LM....
while duty,i'm doing wakil class things...i din't even noe wat to do..cuz i'm not wakil class. amanda teached me....thx da....at last i learn something la..hehe
duty till recess....after that,went back class...dam tired n boring....
after skul,dear haven come...he was so angry bout his dad...cuz his dad haven back home so he can't come to skul n find me....sigh...and dear call me,he is so gek...and he cry when he keep scolding his dad...sigh...sad to see his like that...so i just tell him i skip my tuition to spend time with him just hope he don't so angry ba.....he is going back to ns tmr....really hope he take good care of himself.....quite worry him....=[
after that,about 3 something went to seven-eleven.....in 7-11 i saw my mum cars pass by..omg..scare me..luckly she didn't saw me with him...so i run back ttc.....then dear go say halo to my mum....haha...luckly my mum never sucpect me...thx god...
went back home,tuition maths.....during tuition i really dam "mang jang"i very serious that time...cuz i dono why sudeenly i dono how to do d..i very angry that time...why i noe how to do de then i will forget....grrrr....due to my head oso not feeling well..i really feel like crying out that time...after tuition,kellye back home and i went to rest...tired.........

smile=]

today went to skul as usual,and miss kellye tan shin yee is absent again.....
acc period is so dam boring...dono wat the hack is the datin talking....ignore her everytime....
i'm so tired today,feel like sleeping in class but it was too hot n noisy....
so i did science past year question,is the time to study....we need to make use everyminit n everyseond now..is very important...SPM trial is coming,all of us must gambathe o~
today keep give three boys bully,ronald kai jin n alvin...they love to bully me....sigh.......i feel so headache after that..this is not the normal headache,i don't now how to describe the pain......=[
after skul meet up with my baby dear,i miss him lots...he going back to ns today....amanda don't want to follow me,sigh....so she is alone...i'm sorry=[
actually dear say we eat lunch with his family,but later that he told me don't have...so ok..hehe..
today dear order a roested pork and 4 meat ball and two rice....this is only we ate....hmm..dono why i love the feel like that...normally we eat individual....hehe.....
while i'm going to finish,his sister came up and find him...his sister dam cute la....i can see that he loves his sis alot.....but two of them bully-ing each other are funny....so hope i had a little brother or a elder sister....but dear call her go away,say he will come down later........haha...but dear is wating the time..he don't want to leave cuz of some childish reason....haha....after that his sis came out agian but he didn't know....i also don't know,but when i turn my head behind i saw her sister is squating there..and she call me not to tell him..hahha...that time really dam funny....about 2.30 dear leave.....miss him...after that when to 7-11 to find my da...she is with mathiew they all..when i went in,mathiew say "she had a retard friend" i'm was huh?hallooo...what is happening har?i didn't want to dump you alone,i got call you to go with me la.....thats why that time you saw my eye was red,i really feel like crying....i don't know what i really did?skip skip skip..forget bnout it...sigh=[
after that,da decide to go back skul for lepak........while we are at lorong,sometime really frighten us...i was playing with da ,then behind got a guy is walking towards us and i told da careful not to bang in the ppl.....so the person says"u bang on to me"(with joking)then i was shock...after that,just 1 second he turn back and say,"miss,can i have ur number,i want to know you?omg.....dam scary...i just shake my head and i just went off with da....both of us are frighten....beware at the lorong my freinds.......
after tuition,mum came n fetch me...we had some conversation in the car....n i cried.....she say i must go to australia in the future....T_Ti really don't like to go a place that i don't know..i know all my cousin is going there...but i dowan..T_T
sigh,after this year everyone is going to be seprate...now i really don't feel like graduate....sigh....now my ah yi,laiyuxun is going to migrate to canada...he is leaving this month...T_Ti;m gonna miss you ah yi..all of us will miss you lots....
i'm tired,i'm going to bed now..nitez everyone....

ronald is having fever now,
hope he get well soon...
and,
all my friends rmb to drink more water nowsdays...
take good care of ur health....

everything were solve and its really almost late

i find back my happiness forget those past .......smile brightly.....

finally you realize the wrong you did, and you are almost late...
i'm really happy that you are wake...
i really taught our relationship will be end like this...
but we pass trough all this.....
the time i be with you is more then 11 months d...we really face many problems and hinder..
but we pass all this.....this make our relationship stay more strong..and we won't easily give up=]
i hope you really won't do this again,i really very sad in this month...
everytime argue with you my hearts really pain.....can we don't argue anymore my dear?
my dear,now i see you very scare...when you know i had the break decision with you before...
today i didn't reply your msg in the morning and before finish skul becuz i'm busy...but you keep sms-ing me and say i leave you alone agian...dear,why you suddenly like that de?you really so sacre to loose me meh?
anyway,i won't simply give up in this relationship...if this type of sad relationship will happen to us agian then maybe i really will,sorry to say that=]
we forget about the sad things and stay happy now,ok?
we must smile brightly and forget the sadness......

i will smile brightly like this pic~
this pic taken in 2008~
and that time its is a really hard time for me,but thx to a friend who keep comfort me at that time...you brighten my day when i'm in a sad mood....
you really give me lots of advice...i really thx you so much=]
but now we lost contact,i really miss you as my friend
take care=]

full of sadness

is this the way we are now?
everyday argue?
what happen to us?
why every time because a little things then we argue..
i really very tired about it!!!
can we just stop our argument?
i don't want to argue with you anymore,i hate it!!!!
my mind is full of sadness,
our relationship is also full of sadness..
where is our happy memory?
last time all those happiness are all gone!!
only left sadness in this relationship,are we going to continue this way?
if we really still continue this way,i don't think we can continue this relationship....
i will wait you came back from the national service..after that i will give 1 month time to see how are we?
if we still the same argue everyday and no more happiness in this relationship i don't think we can continue.....
i really feel so complicated now,i trying my best to forget all the sadness...maybe i need time to think all over again.....
now i hope we can just like last time,happy couple and no argument everyday....
can we?

having funs with u guys...

morning wake n get ready for everything n bout 9 something dad fetch us to skul...
meet up qiao en again n continue our conversation yesterday.....
n i still never care him....after that all hu duty back stage back to dk...n we sit in a circle like that n i feel fun...jia yong ,kar yew,yue err,kai xiang all playing psp...they all really funny la...n i can sure now all of the guy is the same....games are just like their life...n suddenly i emo..i cry infront of them...sorry i can't stand....i really dono wat to do.....but after that,i feel much better after playing with kar yew n jia yong..lunch time,all of them are eating the lunch that are provide from canteen but i can't eat cuz everything is oily...so i see thme eat only lu...after they eat,amanda help me call mcd to order poriedge n others order by jia yong n amanda....kar yew keep taking my phone n see my msg n n photo...now i only noe he is so 8....haha.......but he is oso very kind...after our mcd lunch,amanda suggest to play hide n seek...erm...don't laugh pls....only 4 of us play..jia yong ,kar yew,me and amanda....this let me realease my stress....but after that i feel i'm tired running here n there...so i just rest in a quite place in block E..three of them can't find me...da call me n i told her where am i....when they find me ,all of us look so exshousted ...we sit there for 10 minit...and we went to canteen...meet other lm junior n plan to play mafia games...too boring la us....so went back everyone no mood to play d....cuz scolded by someone...sigh...all of them de mood were spoil by her..so jia yong slept d..and others chatting..and me n da suddenly emo agian n we cry again..n thx for christy hu try to telling me joke when i cry....thx christy=]
went back home about 5...and another hour i need to out agian...back to skul agian....back home d write my blog.....about 6 somthing went to ioi cuz amada mum fetch us go to skul....went to skul for the night duty....while in the hall....chat something with kok ming about ."her" and my de "him"......i think alot of things after chatting with him.....sigh....
anyway this day i really had fun with all of you guys.......i love all of you guys......i really happy with all of you....=]

me n da
the emo virgo now...
but we will face everything...
we will face the fact..
we will stay strong...
ok da?

jia yong
too free nothing to do go tie his hair...
funny guy

24-7-2009-friday

today kell kell agian absent....wanna apologize to her o~i'm sorry for that two times when u msg me n u need me that time i never reply u n be with you...sorry=[this week i sleep very early due to i'm not that feeling...sigh...i getting weak n weak=[
didn't really study today...chat with ronald they all n they give me some advice...after that went to ponteng with amanda agian...sorry i left out dongiie in class...
while during in class,try to arrange my time to meet up my dear...duty start at 2 so told my dear that i can meet him for that 1 n half hour...i taught we can happy,but in the end argue again...i'm really very very sad....this is the first time i left anway from you in this situiation,last time de me i won't just go away...i will keep talk to u n make u talk d i only will go for my other things...but this time i won't..i dono why...
while walking back to skul,i'm crying all the way....those ppl pass by me look at me but i really can't tahan...aizh
went to dk n no one is there...saw ka yean n ask her..all of them went to dewan...went to dewan didn't saw da..went back to dk n i saw her qiao en too......while waiting for amanda i cry out agian...n qiao en ask me wat happen n i just told her.....sigh...
ran to dewan n continue for our duty...suddenly i feel very sick...all my bond feel so pain n feel so hot...dono how to describe those pain..really suffer....went out dewan n rest in a quite place n i cry agian.....feel so tired n suffer...few hor later,amanda get a very very bad news n she ran out to dewan n i cry badly...i saw her like that my hearts really pain...we cry together......after duty saw qiao en n we chat lots of things...she give me some advice too..thx yea.....two of us keep crying together very long time...about 6.30 mum came n i ask her can take me go see doctor?i'm really feel so suffer...that time i'm thinking i sick d more good...no where i can go then he will happy?
back home told my daddy how i feel....n i told him i cry...n he ask me why?is it got ppl bully you?
sorry daddy,i feel like telling you but i dono how to tell you....but i think my dad noe why.....he noe me well then no one.....daddy thx for ur caring...
went to see doctor n i had fever n soretorath....when i get ah da msg she say she can duty so i tell myself i need to recover by tonight....so listen to daddy...go sleep early after eat...daddy went to mcd buy poridge for me cuz i feel like eating poridge...thx daddy...=]
i didn't answer his call n reply his msg....i just want to be alone n think wisely...just let me have some time can?

my medicine

its hurt deeply

i had been crying every moment when i'm with da in a quite place...
my mind is just repeating all those words you told me that afternoon...
my heart is just crash in to pieces when i heard you say out this..
i'm speechless when i heard this..
FINE!!you don't know then don't know..i won't tell you...
I did so many things for you,and you didn't even know!!then suan le ba...
I also can't say anything...just think i'm stupid ba...
i scarified so many and you don't know,nothing i can say.
i can just stop to scarified for you...because you don't even know how to appreciate ....
24 hour i never find you...i never answer your call i never reply your msg...
14 unread message,today afternoon i only read all....i don't even care...cause i dono what to do...
this is the first time i so mint to you...i can don't answer your call n don't even reply your message...
amanda ask me why i can like that?i really don't know....
last time i also won't treat you like that,but this time i don't know why i will.....
till now i think you also don't noe what u did wrong!!!please go think urslef....
i'm tired in every argument.....honestly speaking everytime when argue i really feel like letting it go.....but i tell myself do not do it..cuz i will regrect...will i?
and u really change alot,last time you won't show your temper to me...
but now you everytime show me your temper,i really scare of you,i really hate it!!!
and why can you be so selfish?
is this the soo teck seang i know?
u told me you understand,but i don't think you understand at all..
你付出了什么?this sentence i won't ever forget it....till now my mind is still full of this words...i cry when i think back of this 6 chinese words!!!!


continue later..going back to school again!!

don't worry

i will find you when i want...
don't worry anything...
i just want time to be alone...

is this the way we are?

I'm sorry for today again...
the last minit to say can't go out...
but i hope u understand too..
i don't have ppl fetch if too late...I'm sorry...
my mind just keep saying sorry to u since this afternoon till now=[
i don't know what can i say to you....
sorry that i spoil this whole day...
today i can't meet you,I'm ok...but i very miss you now...T_T
why every time when you are back,we didn't happy before?
is this the way we are in the relationship?
i really hope we have a happy relationship=]
dear,i want to tell you that if we didn't have time to go out or we can't meet each other for how long don't be sad,can?
as long as we still love each other very much, how long we didn't meet or how long we didn't spend together this wouldn't spoil our relationship right?
last year,about 2 months we didn't meet n spend time together too..,because of my parents grounded me...but we face everything that happen between us...and everytime we also will solve it......
will u continue to face problem that we maybe going to have in future with me?together everytime when they is something happen?
tomorrow you are going back to NS,i'm going to miss you my dear..take good care of urself...=]
i feel touch when you told me this.."no matter how hurt is it you still will love me and still care for me"
dear,i really wanna say thx to you...
but when u say this,i really feel like crying,cuz i feel very bad...i hurts u so many time d but you still so love me...dear,why are you treating me so good?god...i'm asking stupid question=(

dear,
i'm sorry♥♥
iloveyou♥♥
imissyou♥♥

22-07-2009-wednesday

have duty again..its tired but its very fun duty with all those LM members=]
gonna leave this group soon..i'm gonna miss LM so much=]
after two period went back class...dam tired,but can't sleep...sigh...
after skul,kell went back home ,da went for duty n i meet up my dear...have lunch with my dear,but i'm the only one eating cuz he already ate with his dad...hmmm.....
chatting n disturbinf each other there...my dear bully me,naughty...blek=Q
about 4 went in skul n find da,n dear went home...miss u lots my dear..
u r leaving me agian...u going back in 1 more days..T_T
follow amanda car back,her mum fetch me back..thx aunt=]
at night went for tuition...so so tired n headache...
after tuition went back home, n rest...

imissyoulots

tired day

today went to skul very early,cuz having LM duty for book fair...
while during the duty,i'm not feeling well..i feel so tired n cold...maybe morning i haven eat ba..that is the reason i think?
went back class couldn't sleep cuz is maths period n bm period...kell n tong slept d so i need to copy the bm...
while recess,go find amanda for recess cuz i'm super hungry....after recess,the whole sky is black..n its rain so heavyly sudeenly..
after skul waited for jsaon-kellye friend to fetch us to sunway...cuz i'm going there to meet my dear n kell wanna buy present for her friend...he use a big round to go sunway,that time abit fui fui lu...anyway thx him for driving us there n back ba...
dono why till now i still feeling so cold...aiks...feel so tired.....=[
tmr having duty again....i wanna buy gossipgirl story book=]

my dear kell,
cheer up yea...
smile,u r not lonely u still have us ok?
loves

20-7-2009-monday

went to as usaul,tired day...
finally i meet my dear today..miss him lots....
late for tuition bout half n hour to accompany him lu..cuz his father is coming to fetch him back at 3....when his father came,his sis is oso there...his sis dam cute n funny=]
went to tuition after that,luckly i still can catch up....yeah....
after tuition,dad reach n drop us at the cafe we eat there...
back home for tuition...dam tired la.....
night time,something not really happy happen...
i just tell him about it n the truth and he seem so angry...
aizh....dear,i dono why r u so angry about it lu....
anyway,don't think too much or wateva....
nitez

today my plan were all destroy by my parents..i really very angry that time.....
i'm sorry to my dear too..i know you are disappointed,i'm really sorry=[
i wish to meet you too, i really miss you so much
actually my plan is i go to library n study and when lunch time go n have lunch with my dear for two hour ....cuz today he came back d...i just need that two hour..but u guys spoil my plan....
why everytime u guys wanna spoil my plan...
i noe you guys care about our safety , but please la...don't treat us like 3 years old child anymore la...can ma?
i'm 17 years old d, still got 1 more year i need to go out myself to face this world...if really in future i really had problems i oso must face it myself...u guys can't help...can let me learn how to be more independent? i bag u guys la...aizh.....
me n sister oso not the first time walk to the mac donald near the library la...why today u guys wan fetch us there n back?u guys too free liao is it?god...really dam speechless that time...
on the way to library i cry silently inside,i really feel like screaming that time....
dear disappointed on it,and i think dao why everytime when he is back sure something unhappy happen...why har?aizh...
went library n concentrate on my study,wanna study hard...feel so cold there...how i wish mydear can hug me that time=]
didn't go out for lunch altought two of us is super hungry....call dad 4 come n fetch us and we only had our lunch at shiok cafe near my house...LATE LUNCH~~
just now i'm quite worry about my dear,hope he get well after he wake.....
luckly now he is alright...miss you so much dear...hope tmr i can meet you..loves you

wat do i look like in this pic?
happy?
emo?
sad?
i oso dono



doing acc
my study look=]


doing karangan
smsing with my dear
i'm sorry=[

sister

addition photo at tanjung sepak trip

form 5 and some of the commitee haivng our breakfast

tong,yi,kell,dang yao,hui shin,da,hui in=]
our lunch time
haven ready yet
group photo=]