wierd feeling from me

i dono why this few days i have some weird feeling...
the feeling just tell me that i'm going to loose him soon....why i had this feeling de?i really feel weird...i just feel like cying everytime when the feeling came to me...
or maybe is becuz the next stage of NS is next month....n i dono whether is he going anot...he never mention about it b4.....i scare he suddenly last minit tell me he is going, n i without any 心里准备....i sure will be very very upsad....i hope he will tell me ealier if he really going...don't tell me last minit...pls let me have some 心里准备..can?

imissyou.mydear