boring

today i went back to erican d....aizh...this year really miss the class many time d....
next week maybe going to miss it agian...ii'm sorrry daady....
as normal,the teacher like to zat me de lu.....didn't care lu...
but one very funny things today is the teacher keep calling the two girls in the class my name...in this class only 3 girls...dono wat happen to him...keep calling my name n talk to them...i keep looking at him but he didn't notice.....maybe he miss me too much d....haha.....
but after very long he only notice...

teacher:puiyi do u have the ing-verb note?
(i look at teacher but teacher is talking n standing in front of the ther girl)
girl:yes.....(she didn't tell teacher n find the paper n gave to teacher)
teacher: wat i call u just now?
girls:smile
teacher:wat i call u just now?puiyi?

now teacher only realise.....how blur is teacher...i looking at him n keep laugh only...haha....
our class is getting bored n bored...cuz many of them quit i dono why....teacher saw us like that he oso feel sleepy n bored too.....


went home rest for while went to do acc revision....i'm so worry...
i'm scare of my acc..T_T
must do more more more revision...
after that went sis ksul n pick her up....
went back home study history for while n can't even go in to my mind...so i just update my blog...

I'M WAITING FOR MY DEAR.....

I MISS YOU SO MUCH

doing acc..
gambathe!!!

seee.....
i stick my exam fan wei beside my bed....haha....
yeng mah?
hahah

22-05-2009-friday

skul is boring....
ponteng after recess with tong n kell at dewan kulia...
skip everything happen in skul...i'm lazy to blog...
after skul, dear say he's coming....one whole week never saw him d leh....but yesterday something happen to me..let him unhappy...aizh i dono how to say la...
meet him up at ttc n then went to i.c.r......we still unhappy that time...its so speechless that time....
u seem that u r not believing me.....i dono wat u see in my phone...i have nothing to hide from u.....
totaly speechless......grrr.......i told u nothing means nothing.....i really dono how to tell u wat happen to me....i'm just stress n feel complicated on my feeling....just don't worry...i say nothing d means nothing..is over d..ok?
meet up tong n kell n we went to domino to eat....
dear told me today maybe is the last dat we meet cuz he is going to NS in melaka ...omg.......
I DOWAN I DOWAN!!!!I DOWAN TODAY IS THE LAST DAY TO MEET YOU AR DEAR...T_T
i try to hold my tears infront of him....i'm crying in my heart.....dear,can u don't leave me?
I DOWAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i try to find time to out with u during holiday....i dowan today is the last day....i dowan..T_T
bout 4 mum came n fetch me d...
da n kell came to my house.......
we had lots fun together...
we queeze ourself in my bed...my bed is single size de leh....haha...
n we had girls talks...we talk about bouys things n more....
let me noe everything is ok....thx
n they bully me.....they roll me up with my blanket...they don't let me bath...so bad...
I LOVE U GUYS....
U GUYS BRING HAPPINESS TO ME...THX...
I LOVE U GUYS MUCH MUCH O~
i love spending time with u guys....is FUN..
after that we went out for dinner near my house n we went tuition together....
i hope there is still next time...i love it..i miss the time spending with u guys...muaxzzz

happy birthday to mun ling...
stay cute n happy...
wish u good luck in exam..
hope u enjoy ur day
xoxo

dear,i'm sorry for everything....i dono why actually u r so hurt......
but i wanna remind u....don't ever think that u r the only one who hurt so badly...
i'm hurt too..u noe?
i'm sorry i dono how to cheer u up....honestly,i really dono how to cheer ppl.....i'm sorry...
i'm not really a good girlfriend....forgive me
i really bu she de u...
i dono how am i going to live without u for three months...
no sms n no call...how am i going to live?
as u noe i really can't live without any sms n call from u..
how?T_T
dear,i will miss u madly after u went NS....
i hope i will stay strong after u went there.....
can u don't leave me?T_T
do u noe i love you so much?

u noe how much i love you?
i miss you so much my dear
i'm scare today is the last day...
so i take a photo with him...
we did not take close,becuz my mum had reach i scare she saw so force to take like that..
dosen't look like couple...
anyway i love you madly my dear



why r u still scartching ur head?
haaha


da try to be ghost...
we had lots of fun..
i love u guys...
see this siao po...
she like never apply cream in her face b4...
i love two of u from bottom of my heart

16-05-2009-satursay

morning went undang with da...
dam boring...god....

night went to ioi to have our dinner at TGI...for our mother days dinner...i noe its late..becuz that day my sis sick so we can't celebrate at that time..so this is a replacement...but she still complaning so much...very deng de lor...dowan care her d la....speechless!!!!!!

a new day
hope can stay happily everyday=]

me n dear da

the drinkx


me n my sis
halo...
open ur eye when taking photo la..
need i teach u?


my dinner

15-05-2009-friday

i'm here to update since i can't even concentrate in my study..sigh..


today is skul day,n skul is celebrating teacher day...
so i skip skul, i'm really sorry to my dad....i lie to him agian n i break his promise...i'm sorry daddy..but i have no idea..aizh....my heart feel not well when i skipping skul...

meet kell at kanan n we waited for my dear de mum come n fetch us to his house....jee seng was a pigggyy...he's late so he got to go to my dear house himself.......went into dear's mum car n she fetch us back home....thx aunt....
went to dear house n no one is at home....me n kell is so dam tired....kell is waiting gor her dear to come.....so we watch the love matress.....nothing to do ma...
for a while,dear's dad back d....n he saw us then he say i go out but food for u guys...haha...thx uncle...u r so nice....
about 8 something jee seng came d.....
then we wanna to sleep but the two boys keep disturb the girls...so bad don't let us sleep....
hmm...bout one we left dear house,so ngam zheng rong fetch teck chuan back home n he is going to sunway so we tumpang his car..haha..no need to walk..thx so much yea....
reach sunway n we went to eat...bout 3 something jee send need to back d...sigh...two of them is crying that time.......i'm going to cry too...
today is jee seng last day....he's going to penang to study....take care yea...
after that meet tong n we went to yam cha with her friend.......after that we went red box......
after that we seprate walk d.....they went to dream world to take photo....i wanna join but i see dao dear so tired so i dowan go d...go n find a place to let him rest...he is not really feeling well....after 10 pm dad cmae n fetch me n kell back....thats all for today......i'm super tired

dear.thx for accompany me till i back although u are so not feeling well n tired...
i love u deeply in my heart..
i miss you so much now although we just met

me n dear
hugsss






wat girls always do in toilet?
take photo lu..hehe

me n tong...
me n mimi

walk under the rain just wanna hide away my tears

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE RIGHT NOW,
I'M NOT WILLING TO TALK ANYTHING NOW....
I'M VERY UNHAPPY!!!!!
I'M REALLY TIRED ABOUT ALL THE THINGS......
JUST GIVE ME A PLACE TO REST.....
DON'T DISTURB ME RIGHT NOW!!!

i miss you badly

i miss my dear badly,i noe u miss me too..hehe^^
i noe now everything is change,we can't meet each other everyday d...maybe long time once?
cuz u have already start to study,collage life is very busy...everything is changing....but nvm..
dear just jia you in ur study ba...i'm here to support u....i miss you so much....T_T

DEAR,JIA YOU YEA...
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
I MISS YOU BADLY

i will update my blog after exam,i think?
don't really have mood to blog...
this whole weeks i'm moody.....
i hope everything will be fine after sometime...

XOXO♥♥

awwww.......i miss you so much my baby dear.....
i love you very much too...
thx for supporting me.....
you r the only one hu support me....no one else are standing by my side....=[
thx that u understand my feeling....thx for cheering me up....
YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE I LOVE SO MUCH IN THE FAMILY.....
YOU R MY BEST COUSIN SIS FOREVER.....
MUAXXZZZ..........

our love ♥

hugs...
we love each other....
this is me n my baby dear^^

你以为我想的吗?

你以为我想这样对你的吗?

你以为我这样对你我很好受吗?

你以为我不想好好孝顺你吗?

你以为我不想祝你在任何节日吗?

你以为我想顶你的每一句话吗?

你以为我想把你当透明吗?

你以为我不想跟你谈天吗?

你以为我想没一天跟你吵架吗?

你以为我将想到处跟外人说你是个怎样的一个人吗?

我一点都不想!!!!!!!!你知道吗?

为什么我会这样对你是因为我真的不能在忍受你这种态度,我真的忍受不到了.....

我将对你我一点都不好受,真的很不好受啊!!!!!!!!我很难过但谁会懂呢?没有任何人.....

我真的很想好好做一个孝顺的孩子来孝顺你.....但你的态度给我对你的反感真的很大了.....

我现在真的很羡慕那些人,他们可以帮他们的妈妈庆祝每一个节日.....全家人开开心心的度过....
我再也不懂的怎样祝你了.....我讲不出口了.....

我一点都不喜欢跟你顶嘴,但你每一次说的话真的很过分及没道理.....你不累我会累的啊!!!!!

我很希望我有任何心事或不开心的事我能和你谈,很希望你是那个支持和安慰我的人........但我没有这个机会和你将谈我的事......我和你谈,我只是会给你骂或怀疑这个哪个.......

我一点都不喜欢跟你吵架...每一次和你吵,我都会很伤心而哭......我最近没有跟你说话了,看到你也没理你....因为我已经累了,我已经不想和你吵了.....

一向来,我在你眼里都是一个失败的人,没用的人......我被你看底,我有什么感受呢?你是我妈妈啊!!!!
但我被你看底.....别人看底我,我不会理...但你是我妈妈啊!!!你不是那个在鼓励我的,而是看底我的妈妈!!!!!这是我被你伤害的最深!!!!!!

我跟外人讲关于你是因为我这种感受我不想摆在心里,我很辛苦.....我告诉他门,他们都会说我很坏..但我没理,因为他们根本不了解.....我真的很羡慕那些孩子有一位很谅解及鼓励他们的妈妈!!!比如,我表妹他们,他们有什么事都会对他们的妈妈说.....他们妈妈都会鼓励他们和教他们怎样解决问题...
哎!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!这是我的命吧!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

我变了?

最近我的心情很差..
我想了很多东西,我很矛盾.......
我不知道以前的我去了哪里?
这几天我觉得我自己变坏了....
从去年我已觉得我变了一些,但我问身边的朋友我是否变了吗?他们说没有...那时我就没理咯....
但现在的我确实是变了......
我因为他而变吗?
或是其他事情影响我变呢?
有人说我很迁就他,这是真的吗?
可能吧!!!!!!一时我迁就他是因为我不想吵架或他不爽我,我不爽他!!!
我能承认很多事情我以前不敢做的,但为了他我会去做...总之不是坏事,我都会为了他而去做......我很傻,对吗?
但我知道什么事应该做,什么不应该做........
今天,有人对我说我真的变坏了...我赞成她所说的...我很谢谢你跟我说......
哎!!!!!我都累了.....
虽然你们每次看到的我是西皮笑脸,真个傻婆将.......但我心里是根本一点开心都没有......
我很讨厌我现在的生活,我真的很想快点结束我的人生...........
我能变回吗?





我真的累了,我不想在管了!!!!让我休息可以吗?

9-5-2009-saturday

i'm super duper tired today,yesterday night back home late n sleep late too...

this morning need 8 something wake becuz today is wesak day we need to go to temple....i'm so tired la...don't feel like going but i have no idea how to don't go lu...every year oso got go de....
so went to bath n change everything,went down stair n keep something n i went out from the house sit in the car n chat with my sis...one day never saw her d ....^^after breakfast,sleep in the car i really dam tired la.....reach to the temple there,n we need to walk a long way,while walking my eye really can't open la....so sleepy....sigh.....n there is so hot....abit no mood.....then i meet up my cousin n aunt there.....long time never saw them d..hehe.......after finish everything in the temple,quickly went back into the car n continue sleep.....went to taman desa n had our lunch,i order many many things to eat,didn't care bout them....after eat went back in car sleep again........i noe someone is going to me like a pig d de la...^^no idea la,i'm so tired ma....
back home,update my blog for while n i went to sleep again...........actually my plan is update blog,sleep for 3 hours n wake to study....but the study plan did not suceed...sad=[
becua while i'm sleeping i had a very bad dream.....i cry badly after i woke from the dream,but i'm too tired n i try to sleep back but when i sleep back there is like something pulling me back in to the dream....oh god,n my head is so painful....i don't dare to sleep d...lying on bed n sms with my dear...told him everything n i still keep crying....T_T
the dream is bout,all the ppl around me didn't even care bout me,like i'm a invisible ppl....n everyone is blufing me....even my family n my dear is in the dream too.........aizh....i'm so scare......
sis came in to my room,n chat with her a little while mum call us go down have dinner...after dinner,continue update my blog n chat with my kor lu......
so is about 11 i only gao dim my blog....before that dear never reply my msg so i taught he was sleeping,so i msg him r u sleeping?but he say nope.......

aizh,dear i noe u r unhappy when i tell u i'm talking with my kor.....pls la dear,don't think too much ok?he just my kai kor la...n a few years friend d la.....wat do u think?
u ask me wat i'm doing,still chating?i tell u i'm lying at bed smsing with u.....n u just ask me really?omg......do i need to bluf u wat am i doing ar?u don't believe me?
rmb wat u told me,u told me u believe me....n the BELIEVE this word in the relationship is very important,right?
last time i don't believe u is becuz i don't really noe u that time...i noe i hurt u many time about the word of BELIEVE,i'm sorry......but now i already believe in u,i don't hope is the turn u don't believe me....
rmb wat we promise each other in ur house,don't think too much..ok
i say i love you,i do really mean it...rmb that.....

me n my sis
our relationship between us is getting better n better...
dono when this strat^^
the vegetarian breakfast..

see this xiao zha bo....
no idea wat is she doing
peaveV

omg..look at my face..
i'm so pale .....

doing the order
sleeping.
candid by sis
yeah...
finally i got the sakae card....