bad day

today is a very very bad day to me...
i'm very very down n sad but nobody i can talk to...where r u my friend?
sasa hotline volunteer where r you?i miss you la....nowsday i so sad but i can't find anyone to talk n i just think of u...but i can't contact u....sigh=[ do u still rmb this blur teddy?

first, argue with dear yesterday till now still feeling bad....i noe i got wrong....but not all oso my wrong,right?why everytime like my fault de?evrytime i will say keep saying sorry to u....its this all my faulth?aizh..........
when i feeling bad n unhappy becuz of you,i will feel like don't wanna talk to u or reply u in a fu yan de mood.........i did this way but in the end i'm the one hu say sorry to u....is my wrong?
kell n da say u unhappy, don't show out to him keep inside ur heart,cherish the time u with him.....
is this right?i think 50% is right ba.....
but unhappy things keep inside the heart very xin ku de leh....aizh....really dono wat to do...
i noe u get hurt badly from me, but do u noe i get hurt badly from u too......DO YOU NOE?
sometime i just telling u about my feeling bout myself or anything u just seem unhappy or don't wanna talk anymore......sonetime i don't really undearstand why?i just telling u my feeling but u just end up with a bu shuang de mood........so i just shut up myself n i won't tell u my feeling anymore.......

secondly,acc result came out...i just get 56 mark.....i'm dam sad..i feel myself dam useless...i'm pressure...i'm tired....i'm going bad in everthing.......i'm done here...i hate myself...i dowan to live anymore.....i wan to sleep forever n ever,don't wanna wake....if p6 still having acc i'm sure i will stay at the class i think...there won't have so much pressure for me....aizh.......sux result for my acc......i aim my acc mark is above 60 de la.....wat the hell!!!!!!!aizh..........
i'm crying for the whole day in the class,my tears just drop n drop i can't stop it.....i'm really tired...i don't feel like talking to anyone.....i just wan to be alone.......i hope there have a coner to let me hide myself.....after skul just went home,sorry that i never stay back in skul to pei kell...but i think she oso don't hope i'm staying ba cuz of my stupid mood.....continue cry in the car....went home n bath n went to sis kul n i brought a lot of food to eat....just eat n eat without control...trying to burst myself..........i'm tired in this human life..........

will our relation last long?

-everything going bad today
-i'm tired
-i still love you very much
-i'm not a good girlfriend
-sux acc result
-i miss one of my friend
- i scare to loose you
-i'm hurt badly too

if u saw this don't feel unhappy i just writting my feeling in it.......ok?