the feelling towards me now

i'm very very very sad now...
reason is,
1.today dear put me aeroplane,he say will come to skul but he never come becuz he need to go for the collage thing..n he make me so messy that time....aizh....i already very unhappy la then dono why he suddenly say he very fan dowan msg me d...suan lu...then dowan msg lu...why he everytime fan then he wan to dump me aside de?why?i don't understand ar.....oso not I make u de la.......i very hurt lor....aizh...nothing to say.....

2.my dear da oso feel sad n hurt bout something...but i really hope she will stay strong n stay happily....don't be so sad n emo d....is not worth....u still got us....kayz?i dowan to see u like that i feel sad everytime u cry becuz of he.......

3.my dear kell oso feel hurt n sad now....becuz of the stupid jee seng......why u keep hurting kell de?can u stop hurting her?aizh.....

4.when tuition bm i'm feel that i'm wasting my time every week there....i can't even concentrate at all....i oso dono why la.........i try to concentrate everytime but in the end fail..........useless......

where are you now?
i need you but u r not here with me now?
u were gone for half day....wat r u doing?
hu can i talk to now?
NOT EVEN YOU I CAN TALK TO WHEN I NEED SOMEONE TO HEAR ME!!!