why?

I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY?
WHY EVERYTIME BACK WE MUST SO EMO?
I'M HAPPY YOU COME BACK TMR,AND WHEN U CALL ME U R HAPPY TOO..
BUT THAT IS JUST AWHILE!!!
NOW,U R SAD AGAIN...N U SAY U R DISAPPOINTED ON YOURSELF AS YOU SAY!!
BUT I DON'T THINK SO!!!
MAYBE U THINK I DON'T GIVE YOU TIME!!
BUT U MUST UNDERSTAND ME,MY PARENTS DO NOT KNOW I'M IN RELATION WITH YOU....
I CAN'T TELL THEM I NEED TO OUT WITH YOU!!!
I TOLD YOU I WILL TRY TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH YOU AFTER THIS YEAR,
BUT YOU ANSWER ME ANYTHING!!
I FEEL SAD WHEN I GET THIS ANSWER!!I DONO WAT TO SAY ANYMORE!!!
I DON'T THINK U UNDERSTAND ME,OR I OSO DON'T REALLY UNDERSTAND WHAT ARE YOU THINKING!!!
YOU HOPE TO MEET ME,I OSO HOPE TOO...
BUT IF MY PARENTS DON'T LET I HAVE NO CHOICE......
DON'T EVER SAD WHEN WE CAN'T MEET!!
WE STILL HAVE MANY CHANCE TO MEET...I'M NOT GOING TO DIE AFTER TOMORROW.....
I FEEL BAD WHEN YOU ARE SAD IN THIS TYPE OF SITUATION...I FEEL THAT I'M NOT A GOOD GIRLFRIEND TO YOU....I FEEL I'M USELESS!!
DEAR,I WANT TO ASK YOU SOMETHING..
DO YOU STILL BELIEVE ME AS LAST TIME YOU DID?
I REALLY WANT TO KNOW THE TRUE ANSWER FROM YOUR HEART...
ANYWAY,I STILL LOVE YOU VERY MUCH...
CAN WE PUT MORE HAPPINESS IN OUR RELATIONSHIP...
DON'T BECAUSE A LITTLE THINGS THEN WE ARGUE N BECOME SAD.OK?

I'M THINK VERY LONG SHOULD I POST THIS OUT ANOT!
I SCARE U READ THIS AND U SAD AGIAN..
BUT I POST IT OUT TOO..HOPE YPU DON'T MIND...
I JUST WANNA EXPRESS MY FEELING..
I DON'T HAVE ANYONE CAN TALK TO SO I JUST NEED TO EXPRESS MY FEELING HERE...
HOPE YOU DON'T MIND!