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i'm very tired today because last night talk to dear on phone till 1 midnight like that....
bring sains n maths went to skul ,but can't really study because the class is so noisy...aizh....
after skul meet up with my baby dear....i'm really worry that he let he parents scold because he come n find me ...nowsdays his family very strict,maybe is because the H1N1 ba..
went to shusi king to have our lunch with my darlings n my dear...after lunch walk around to find present for my ah yi..
bout 3 something went back ttc n continue tuition...msg with dear n he seem like unhappy....then ask him why and he say his mum is scolding again...hmmm..that time really feel sad n down d....
don't know why i have this type of feeling....and i feel that like all is my wrong...don't know why?
after his mum see my blog n our blog,in her eyes now i'm a girl that hu hurt his son badly....i don't know why i keep thinking of this.....maybe i think too much or what....sigh....
after tuition,last minit kellye mum scold n say that car no place...so last minit no one can fetch us.....
so,we really don't know how...after that lend money from kellye mum n we take taxi back..
during the distance,i chat alot with amanda about my problem what i think what i feel....she gives me many advice....i really hope i really think too much and those feeling is fake...
bout 7 something amanda back....my mood quite down just now till now...
and i really feel very weird in that guy,why is he saying my bf n me the pic in msn so swt leh?
keep say swt swt swt....any problem i put the pic?just a normal photo also swt?youself also put u n ur gf photo la...like this you saying urself very swt only is it?speechless with it.....
now i still very down,and i started to cry again....i don't know why?
why is his parents keep scolding him?see him so unhappy,i really very sad....i feel that all is my wrong like that.....is this my wrong?
arrrrrrrrrrr....................................................................KILL ME PLEASE!!!!!!!!!

dear,
if your parents don't allow you to come out is ok to me,just stay at home..i don't want your parents keep scolding you d...i very heart pain to see you so unhappy....really is alright if we didn't meet...ok?we know we love each other and i always will miss you and i'm always in your heart...don't think too much and worry too much....i'm not going to leave you..ok my dear?