will u saw this?

i'm so sorry that i have no mood to msg u now!
the reason i dowan to msg with u cuz i will keep crying only..i dono how to face!
my hope become a dissapointed!everything really like a dream!
left few more days i have to go Ns!
i noe i can't see u before i go..i got think this few days i dowan to meet u!
i noe this is a stupid thinking! i miss you so much! how i hope u hugging me tightly...
what going to happen next three month?
will u follow my parents come n visit me?
i really dono the answer.cuz that is SUNDAY!that day is a busy day for you!
i dun dare to put hope!cuz it will make me more hurt if u dind't appear that time..
anyway,i just wish u study hard! take care urself!
focus in ur study.
jia you!
and i maybe won't call u evryday at ns like u when u r at ns! sorry!
you are always in my heart.r u with me right?
am i in ur heart?but i'm always with you.♥.

tuesday we argue i really dono what to say..maybe i'm wrong...i'm oso angrying u cuz u go out late agian!many things that u say to me really hurt me! that momment i just dono what going to happen next! recently i think u oso feeel that my attitude have become worst right?i oso dono why! maybe ns?maybe others thing?this few week my feeling really feel complicated! after the argument i just try to forget bout it n try to be happy n have fun with u b4 i go ns!that only my hope!but everything seem that i'm dreaming again!

today went out countdown with u n ur brother....n today i think many things at ur house..n ur face reaction to ur sis n to me when we r playing u look so bu shuang!i dono why...i just keep refreshing ur look that day u argue with ppl!i'm really scare....many things that i really try to forget about it..but it can't be erase from my mind! u keep talking to me so fierce when u n ur bro talking bout ns! u keep scolding me like that...maybe u guys really worry or what i dono...but i just wanna hang out n dowan to talk bout ns....i keep sms n i didn't talk is not related at all..i think everyone that have close to me oso understand that i'm a person that really can't live without my hp while outside...do u understand?many many things i wanted to say but i dono how to say out...will everything go fine?will our relationship last long?am i thiking too much?after three month what will happen?

friday~by the way u saying i think u r not coming at sunday d ba...after tmr when can i meet u?

i'm off to ns now..really dam miss you..i'm gonna cry now! sigh...sunday u not coming d de ba?nvm..take care...study hard...goodbye

when will u saw this?when u miss me?
i hope u saw this after i went to ns!



p/s: dear this is the few days feeling b4 i go ns..although there is many things that make me not really happy...but i'm still love u very much...i surely miss you...see u when i'm back.goodbye my dear..take care<3