complicated

hmmm....today went to skul n i feel so so tired.....sigh....plus this few day i was quite blur....i done many careless in this few day....really dono wat happen to me!!wat going on to me?
can someone tell me?
is it becuz i'm to tired on study?
or i didn't get enough rest?
or i'm worrying bout something?
argh....n wat i did today in art class....everyone share the paper with the partner...but i take the paper n see myslef...kell look at me n i didn't boder her...then suddenly i think back....n i keep say sorry sorry...i keep laugh at that time..oh gosh..how blur am i....aizh.....
and at ttc tuition acc,i was taking my rubber n i'm asking myself where i wan to rub har?n then keep look for it n i found it...oh god......i really dam blur la....going to be crazy soon...haha....
back to today skul time...as normal i sms druing every lesson....n dear told me a sad news, that is he is going to go perak study next year....his mum wan him go...do he have choices?hmmm....i heard this news i feel like crying...i don't feel like lossing him again...but will i had choices in my future?my parents hope i go australia,n i don't think i had a chance to say no to them...sigh...i really don't like to going oversea n start a new life in a strange place....i can't leave him alone here....
kell today told me that between me n him...many things that keep coming...like this things had solve n another thing came....is this a test for us?aizh.....
dear, will our relation last long n 4eva????
and and and next stage of NS is coming soon d.....n he will be going to NS soon.....where he going still dono yet...he say he havent get the letter n he hope not to get...sigh.....everything just like god to plan ba....is urs then is urs,if it not urs then is not urs....u can't force it....

sigh...after skul really dono why u suddenly become so unhappy.....all ur msh seem like bu shuang n fu yan....quite hurt that time...i can't do anything just to cheer u up....i just hope u will be happy everyday.....lastly hope u get well soon dear.....

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