is this the way of FRIENDS mean!!

Wat mean FRIENDS mean to you?
find good benefit from them?
treating them in diffrents ways in diffrent times?
being nice infront of them n saying thier bad words behind them?
IS THIS THE WAY OF FRIEND MEAN TO YOU???
i been hurting by u deeply since last year....i cry everytime when i noe u did something behind me....n i don't understand why are u like that?
i'm treating u as my best friend but u keep hurting me again n agian....
n this is the reason why i treat u in a diffrent way when i talk to u or wateva....
ok...last year holiday,we argue n u are saying why i treat u n her in a diffrent way....
u wan to noe why?go ask urself....n u say u treating me as ur friend but dono am i treating u as my firend anot....i answer u yes...i'm treating u as my friend everytime....but now is the time i ask u this same question....r u treating me as ur friend now?
after the argument,i try to change back the same way to treat u....n i taught u will change....but in the end is hurting me agian...n dissapointed.....sigh....
i already heart death about you...n i won't let myslef to get hurt from u anymore....
if u see this post, i think u won't care bout it ba...u just will thinking i'm talking rubbish here,right?wateva u say i don't care...
i just write out what i feel....
i just can't stand the way u are!!!!