will u saw this?

i'm so sorry that i have no mood to msg u now!
the reason i dowan to msg with u cuz i will keep crying only..i dono how to face!
my hope become a dissapointed!everything really like a dream!
left few more days i have to go Ns!
i noe i can't see u before i go..i got think this few days i dowan to meet u!
i noe this is a stupid thinking! i miss you so much! how i hope u hugging me tightly...
what going to happen next three month?
will u follow my parents come n visit me?
i really dono the answer.cuz that is SUNDAY!that day is a busy day for you!
i dun dare to put hope!cuz it will make me more hurt if u dind't appear that time..
anyway,i just wish u study hard! take care urself!
focus in ur study.
jia you!
and i maybe won't call u evryday at ns like u when u r at ns! sorry!
you are always in my heart.r u with me right?
am i in ur heart?but i'm always with you.♥.

tuesday we argue i really dono what to say..maybe i'm wrong...i'm oso angrying u cuz u go out late agian!many things that u say to me really hurt me! that momment i just dono what going to happen next! recently i think u oso feeel that my attitude have become worst right?i oso dono why! maybe ns?maybe others thing?this few week my feeling really feel complicated! after the argument i just try to forget bout it n try to be happy n have fun with u b4 i go ns!that only my hope!but everything seem that i'm dreaming again!

today went out countdown with u n ur brother....n today i think many things at ur house..n ur face reaction to ur sis n to me when we r playing u look so bu shuang!i dono why...i just keep refreshing ur look that day u argue with ppl!i'm really scare....many things that i really try to forget about it..but it can't be erase from my mind! u keep talking to me so fierce when u n ur bro talking bout ns! u keep scolding me like that...maybe u guys really worry or what i dono...but i just wanna hang out n dowan to talk bout ns....i keep sms n i didn't talk is not related at all..i think everyone that have close to me oso understand that i'm a person that really can't live without my hp while outside...do u understand?many many things i wanted to say but i dono how to say out...will everything go fine?will our relationship last long?am i thiking too much?after three month what will happen?

friday~by the way u saying i think u r not coming at sunday d ba...after tmr when can i meet u?

i'm off to ns now..really dam miss you..i'm gonna cry now! sigh...sunday u not coming d de ba?nvm..take care...study hard...goodbye

when will u saw this?when u miss me?
i hope u saw this after i went to ns!



p/s: dear this is the few days feeling b4 i go ns..although there is many things that make me not really happy...but i'm still love u very much...i surely miss you...see u when i'm back.goodbye my dear..take care<3

photo

this is all thos past photo that i didn't upload for the past few month..i just update photo to do the talking...is a short post/=





waiting for kellye to fetch n go seminal.
after seminal we went to be flyer at armcop to help her family..
at night we went to ioi to have dinner

i'm sick at that day=[
a kiss for birthday boy

i love you my dear


too boring at libray

dear draw this indian pooh bear

LOST!

about graduation day i will update when i upload my photo..

now something really make me cry very badly......u say u so scare like that u can't bear it long anymore..can i noe what u mean?maybe is the meaning ba...i dono what should i say...i just know my heart had break in to pieces....
i'm really lost now!lost lost lost!!!!!!

moody

morning sleep late d...should wake up at 9 n ready to go to library...
but i wake at 10..luckly mum still wanna fetch me....
went to fetch kell first then went to library n we had our breakfast there...
start to study at library for few hour....then da da came n meet us up...=]
more while,alvin n kellye's friend came too...
so headed to old town kopitiam for lunch....i didn't eat cuz i wanna save money=]
suddenly feel not well,call mummy come n fetch me back home...lucky she didn't scold or not i die....
today not really happy....moody....=[

readers i'm back=]

now is 2am midnight...
and i just complete my maths...so tired...
i will upload some photo after i get back my cable...
just a short update here,i will try to update everyday....
i try my best k?
hope my dear get well soon,take care..

i think i won't be blog for so often d...
this few days i do not have any mood to blog anything...
i feel my life is so complicated...don't ask me why?
i will post last week de post when i'm free..
stay tune yea=]

22-9-2009-tuesday

baba fetched me to sunway...
i reached there at 10.hehe...
waited amanda there...
and i went to find dear at his work place..hehe...
dear really get shock..dear i believe u r happy...
cuz u miss me lots n i miss u so much too=]
dear really look so funny that time...
i seldom give u surprise...hehe
while talking to dear outside the shop guess who i saw?
MR.MICHEAL!!!
really get schoked!!
about 11 something meet up amanda n we went to shop..
amanda meet her friends too..
have lunch with amanda n my dear in wong kok....
kinda bankrap...sigh
about 6 finally i found my prom dress d...hehe...
dear n amanda say nice too....called up my mum n tell her..
when my family reach d took them to the shop n see..and i argue for this dress quite long she only allowed me to buy...==
when i go take my bags from dear n i waiting for dear come out cuz he is busy..my tears slowly drop down...i try to bear it n the tears flooding in my eyes..why i cry is becuz i got to back home d..i dowan to back i wan to be with my dear.....i wan my dear...i miss him madly...
i never ever try this feeling before...it so suffer...finally i noe how dear feel everytime he miss me so badly...in the car i'm crying silently on the way home..keep crying non stop..i hope he can hug me tightly that time=[

dear i found that my love to you is getting deeply n deeply...
i hope we will not giving up each other so easily in the future..
will you hold me tight whenever things happen?
i love youuuuuu so so sooooo muchhhhhhhh♥♥♥♥

i ready=]
this is the first dress i try..
long one..not really nice
dada...
capture by my dear
me<3
me n my dear♥
dear's lunch

my lunch,is a set


the second dress i try
the third one,i love it...
but i never choose this two..
cuz others is more nice..
but i hope i can buy for myslef...
i love to wear dress...=]

p/s:actually i have try many dresses today..i think is more then 15 ba....it so tiring...

21-9-2009-monday

today went to skul to practice graduation song in ttc...
i'm super hungry,cuz i haven ate my breakfast..=[
about 12.30 the practice is end...yi xuan,hui lin,ronald n me headed to mcd in armcorp for pur lunch.....and i called my dad to fetch me at 2.30 and he say he is not free need me to wait till 4..omg...i'm alone wei....and mummy is outiside dono where...so i called her n say no one is with me later..so she say she come fetch me..luckly..or not i'm gonna be alone=[
first time no one wanna fetch me...=[
tmr outing with my darling da to sunway for hunting prom dress agian=]
and i'm going to give my dear a surprise..hope he will happy...=]

this is hui lin

this is ronald the donald duck=]
the green shirt is tong xuan,hehe

20-9-2009-sunday

today kinda pissed off!!!
totally no mood at all....
argue with mum at night..hate it!!!
while shopping in the giant with family bought a small box of ice cream and i finished it the whole box in 15 minit...i really dam bad mood today

19-9-2009-saturday

today afternoon having maths,is replacement for next monday...
teacher help us mark our paper 1..i got25/40..is a good news to me...cuz i have try my best n i had improve....=]bright smile to me.....=D
hope my paper 2 won't lower then 50..or not i'm gonna kill myslef...
maths is running a part of my study subject....its getting more important to me...an acc too
this two is my most important subject to me...
i must do well!!!
get a news from my dad,say we got to go to my mum's uncle aunt 5oth wedding anniversary...gosh....cuz my mum brother's family some cannot go need us to replace the sot...sigh....after tuition,quickly prepare myself...
after that went to fetch my grandma n cousin...really is so OMG tO me.....they still the same..never ever change!!!!my ear really gonna deaf everytime they are in my car...really hate it!!!!n i'm trying to ignore my grandma n cousin....u guys will think i'm very bad...but i got reason....
reached there n there is stiill alot of ppl haven come..so we have to wait..n i freaking cold there...i never bring any jacket...how i hope my dear is there for me=]
n i'm freaking boring there..no one there i can talk too...even my sis too..so i sms with many ppl...there is my darling kell,my dear,my baby and my kai sai lou,jia yong...
wait till 8 something we only start the dinner....
and there is two cousin n a cousin's cousin..that i never talk to them before n they never talk to me b4..we are not close..can say i'm not close to anyone in my mother side...n they can hate me too..i oso dun understand...they hate me becuz of a stupid reason...hellloo...u guys not a children la..matured abit la....every person have theier diffrent life....
about 11 we only went back...
regret to go to this dinner!!!

i'm ready=]








me n my sis




me n my lovely dad♥
if she saw this she going to kill me..
she is trying to take photo of herself..lol

capture by sis..
i love it♥<3

me♥