TO- kellye

i oso guess dao u will write something about me in ur blog de lu...
i'm been thinking this few days,n i admit i really change d...
i oso dono when i change?don't everytime say that i didn't cherish our friendship n i didn't take our friendship important...i've been with you for 4 years,honestly tell u guys..this is the longest friendship i ever had...n i won't take this friendship as a game or wateva...ok?

sorry that i hit ur head...i will be more concern about it...i didn't mean to hit ur head,just sometime play will play till crazy n dono wat am i doing...anyway,i'm sorry....i will be more careful of this

u guys are joking n playing i noe,but sometime joking the words will hurt me, u guys think i small gas or i 玩不起.....maybe u guys don't feel the hurt u guys feel fun with it...but i feel hurt,u noe?u oso dono.....
in the morning,tong xuan ask u to sit with her,its doesn't matter....that time dono wat r we playing or saying u call me go away,maybe u r joking...but i feel hurt to hear that....u noe?
n u let me feel that now u with her he hao d,n u wan to dump me aside!maybe u didn't mean it,but i had the feel when u call me go away...so that time i really hurt n sad n im thinking wat am i in ur eyes?i scare to be the last 4 years de me!!!u noe my form 1 life right?u noe how i hate that life!!!!its just like a hell for me only!!!when i'm sad or down i will be quite and i don't feel like talking,u see many time of this me right?so i just study...wat can i do?sitting there to dream?
i didn't copy u ok!!!!!!


how hurt i get by see hui?u noe right?
i been droping tears becuz of her how many time d?
get hurt badly by a best friend u treat as,the feeling i noe very well!!!!

sometimes like seang is with me,two of u will just like saying many things that i feel so hate n sad!!!!maybe u guys don't feel that.....i told u before FRIENDS IS MY SENOND PLACE!!RMB!!
but u seem to not believe me!!!i try to keep everything in my heart ,i dono hu can i tell too...
if tell u guys,i scare u guys will bu shuang me n think i small gas or wateva.....
wan to write at blog but i dowan to make things big,so just decide to keep in my heart...
maybe there is oso just a limit.....da say we need to be honest to each other,i think its true ba....
do u think so?
u think i'm happy with the situaution?u r not right....
i didn't hates u and i didn't dislike you.....
n i didn't treat u as a dog,ok!!!!!!!
YOU N AMANDA IS MY BEST FRIEND!!I TREAT U GUYS AS MY BEST FREIND!!!!
WHAT AM I IN UR HEART?

if there any unhappy things that we keep inside the heart ,there will make a missunderstanding between it....if there is anything we will sad or hurt ,we should tell out, that will make us feel better!!! this is the things i learn just now...

24-6-2009-wednesday

today my classmates everyone is having econ exam...
i didn't take this sub but i oso went to skul becuz after skul wanna go out to mv to celebrate ronald belated birthday...
after skul,all of us take bus n went to mv....we actually plan to watch hannah mothana,but they is no ticket!!so watch 17 agian,me n alvin watch before d..i don't mind becuz i promise my girls i will watch with them agian....the show start at 3 something..so we went to have our lunch at shilin,before that we bought bubble tea....yummy..i love it....went shilin n i didn't eat becuz i feel very full after drinking that bubble tea...shuman brought the cake n after our lunch we celebrate for him,u happy?hope u r..=]me n da playing with the cream n we put it on his face,haha...n we oso help him to clean up.=]movie time start,we went in the cinema,i love the feeling of this..watching movie with bunch of my friend...i love this feeling=]me n tong need to back at5.30..the movie end up at 5.15..omg....its actually 10 minit to back to skul from mv...but we saw they are so many ppl taking taxi n its raining...so we are rushing..we went to the another lane to take taxi....but that something happen, first the taxi didn't go the way we back to skul,he taking a big round,so i taught he is using a long way back,so i just quite...but after that,he went up to the bangsar bridge,n i was like where r u taking us ar?then he say here no traffic jam then i just say oh!!after awhile i feel werid,this way oso can't back to skul de...i dono where am i too...omg..i start to scare n i just keep asking tong where we are..KL?sri hatamas,....har?why we are so far d de...me n tong nearly wanna cry out...the road he went is oso quick quite...
sms dear,kell n my mum to tell her that the taxi take wrong way...amanda n kellye keep calling us,n my mum call me too...wat did she say to me?
she didn't even care me...keep scolding me only,say she "ji niao"omg....u still children ar?wan i teach u ji niao that time wat to do ar!!ttc is there I.C.R is there got toilet dono how to go de ar...dam stupid...u scare dirty is ur problem not i don't let u go toilet....n i oso not i wan to be in wrong way!!!!!!ronald father call n he talk to the taxi driver,wah..dam scary that time...reach skul is about 6.....everyone is there d..but we r the most early leave mv but we now only reach skul...went up ttc n amanda hugs us...i feel like crying that time....went back car,n she scold me..deng...then i scold her back till she nothing to say!!wat kind of mother are you!!!!!
luckly we r save!!!thx god

discussing where to eat but no one had an idea

the bitrhday cake
the birthday boy n the birthday cake=]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
potato is lighting the candle

nice=]



we are singing happy birthday to him n he is enjoying?haha

now wishes

use mouth to take candle


cutting the cake for everyone
playing cream at ronald face=]




but after that we clean it


donggiieee tong tong..
alvin
swhu pei
4 of us n the birthday boy
me n dada

we r promotting the bottle

tong n kell
don't move..haha



me n da
da n tong
da n kell
da n ronald

me n ronald
in the cinema
i love this momment=]

da n me
ronald n me

the bottle i biught for sis birthday at tmr=]

23-6-2009-tuesday

having the last paper for today that is english n maths...
about my maths i really did my best....i'm curious to noe my mark....hope its ok..
for my classmate hu having econ for tmr,jia you o!
oh ya,n today is my dear exam too..jia you too dear!

after skul,went to redbox with da n kell...
hmmm...sing a little at there...n dear call me n say he finish his exam,he wan to come..
so about 4 he came to redbox to find me lu,cuz he going to leave n back to ns at thrusday n so he wanna meet me lu....sigh,he still feel so sad....n i dono wat is my feeling..i feel so complicated...when dear hug me,i dono how to say my feeling...i just feeling like crying n ask inside my heart..why are you treating me so good?hmm..after singing is about 6,dear still sad n he is going to cry..i can see that..aizh...but i have no feeling,i dono why?everything i had no more feeling!!!many things really run in my mind this fews days...i feel very complicated....=[
after that,kell brother fetch us back,about 8 something dad fetch me back home from kellye house...


lastly wanna wish someone,
that is

RONALD NG

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YEA~
WISH ALL YOUR WISHES WILL COME TRUE~
HOPE U HAVE A GREAT DAY IN UR BIRTHDAY=]

22-6-2009-monday

skul as usual n exam is usual,
today is sains 1 n acc 1...
hope its ok with it ba....

after skul went to mv with kell n da to have our lunch...
we r late for tution...went tuition,and carrie say this is the last chapter n she had finish teach everything..omg..infront all de i oso dono wat like de leh...T_Thu can help me with my acc?i need to get a As in SPM,can i?
god bless me=]
after tution da follow us back....having next tution at 5..dam tired n my mind is so messy...
very down=[
teacher msg us n call us start to do the paper 2,i was actually studying n prepare for later...but he so early call us do...then just go n do lu..n today tuition time is longer cuz tmr is having maths 2..omg...teacher help me mark my paper 1 i only got 14/40...i saw that result my heart just broke down immediately...n i losse 5 marks,becuz the last 5 question all i oso noe how to but i have no time to do...dam sad....aizh....so i must work hard in my paper 2....do till very stress...going to cry out....but must face it...jia you!!!
at last that three hour is over...after kell back,rest for that 1 hour and i start to study my maths n do some exercise till 1 am....i'm going to crazy....i'm so stress that time,but u come n agrue with a little tiny things with me?dear,u noe i'm very stress with my maths now,i told u my whole my mind is maths!!!!wat do you do?continue argue with me!!!!
just i create a facebook,n u angry with me and argue?is this a criminal things?why u so angry ?
u call me don't use,ask u why?ur answer is cuz u bu shuang....hallooo,hu is using with it ar?
i send that msg to u u don't beilieve that is i write de right?maybe is too over,but u oso too over lor....becuz a facebook u come n argue?omg...wat happen to u ar?
this is the first time i argue with u that i didn't cry and no mood...i didn't even care...i'm tired of it....i dono y i don't have those feel d,is becuz i stay strong d?or?complicated=[
went to sleep n didn't care everything bout it d...i'm going to faint if i'm not going to rest...

21-6-2009-sunday

FIRST OF ALL
HAPPY FATHER DAY ,MY DEAR DADDY!!!
I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!!
SORRY FOR SOMETIME MAKING U ANGRY!!
BUT I NOE U WILL FORGIVE ME=]
RMB THE LAST YEAR,WHEN U NOE I WAS IN A RELATIONSHIP U WERE VERY ANGRY,N WE DIDN'T TALK FOR 2 MONTHS,I THINK?I FEEL SO SAD THAT TIME..BUT AT LAST U STILL FORGIVE ME...THX DADDY!!!

pink n red
black and white
me n my dad,
the two times we were wearing the same colour...
now i only realise=]
ILOVEYOU!!

today dear msg me at the early in the morning...6 something...i'm super tired but i'm staying up for him...try to keep myself awake n sms with him....but bout 9 something i slept d..n i wake n reply n sleep agian...just reply sleep wake reply n sleep back again...hmmm...then bout 11 i wake..n i only reply him....then he call me...n its a good news...he is coming back today.....waho...dam happy leh...n he ask me can come out n meet today?n i was like huh?so last minit,sure can't out de la....then je abit dissapointed lu....after hanging up...walk out from my room n i saw my dad and i wish him HAPPY FATHER DAY....i love you daddy...
after i went down ,my mum n dad ask me wanna go sunway?i was so suprise...they ask me is it wanna buy book n present for my sis...i was thinking should i go?should i tell them i wanna go meet him?after that i went up,my dad is there too...n i told my dad....my dad let me go..wah...that time dam happy la....but he say must ask mama first...but i don't dare=[then about 1 hour...my dad came down d..n he was talking to my mum....n i run there...n stand between them...i look at my dad...haha...n my dad help me to tell her...haha...dad thx alot...i love you...but i need back early lu..nvm..is ok...at least i can meet him then can d....
about 2 something dad fetch me...n dear haven reach...me alone...=[so went to popular n buy my books first lu...waited for so long only he came..aizh....
after that he came,hahah....at last can see he botak d....dam funny la...not use to it....but nvm..i still love you....hair will grow wan right?had lunch at pizza hut...after had lunch,walking here n there...but something he made me very angry bout him lu....he wan go home to change slipper becuz he wearing that shoe hurt his leg,so i call him go his own lu.....
but he force me to go his house,aizh....dam angry n i walk back in s.p.....keep seeing he walk so slowly n feel so pain,fine...tell him before 6.30 must back...his whole family is at home..oh god..so scary....about 6 something his dad fetch us back s.p...thx uncle...we walk n chat...n he talk bout something very far....then i just tell him wat i think....dear,i didn't mean anything in it....i just dowan u put so much hope in it...if thats things not happen in the future,i scare u will hurt badly only...so pld don't sad ,k?hope u understand...brought some food for dad...bout 7 something dad came n fetch me d....not really happy after that?feel so complicated in everything=[

going out=]

my dear become botak d..haha..
he is reading my diary..

i love you my dear=]
miss you =]